Meandering Mouse wrote:
It is just because I care so much for the forum, and those who have become dear to me on the forum that I am asking for patience.
I have had my moments of wanting to leave. This is not always an easy place, but I have stayed.
I have stayed, because it is a constant window into my beloved Kruger.
I have stayed, because I have learnt so much.
I have stayed, because of wider horizons.
I have stayed, because it has given me a voice to express my love of nature.
I have stayed, because it has opened the world of birding, photography, all creatures both great and small.
I have stayed, because of friendships formed.
I have stayed, because of shared laughter.
I have stayed, because of others loyalty.
I have stayed because I am richer, wiser, happier, smarter than before.
Hiya MM, for a shrink you have talked a lot of sense above.
I must applaud you for formulating my exact feelings.
I still clearly remember my first welcome by BB, Matthys, Scips (he wasn't very kind to me
I am way smarter than before I joined the Forums (if that is at all possible
). Also, for the first time, I perceived Kruger to be mine too. Not just a mere slogan of 'what's mine, is yours', but REALLY MINE too. And this led me to believe that I could highlight the positives and the negatives as far as the management of the parks were concerned. Perhaps a warped perception, but a perception anyway. For months after joining the Forum I was on Cloud 9.
It was wonderful to experience all the positivity (yes, of course there was the odd difference of opinion - Ndloti wanting to kayak through Kruger
to the fishing competition which was held by honorary rangers in Kruger, etc). I remember how the Oom and I neglected to admit that we knew each other, let alone that we are married.
And how much fun that in itself was, esp when it came to the Camp D outing.
And then came black December 2009... (not going to go there now), which I still believe was a turning point for the Forum (and if not for others, definitely for me)...
But we cannot dwell in the past, and what was will never be. All parties involved in the Forum should realise this. The Forum in a sense has matured from its baby boots to being a teenager - and need I say more about teenagers?
So where the Forum LO was an obedient child, it progressively matured into a Forum Teen. And I think this is where we are today.
I did a lot of introspect whilst I was in Kruger recently, and I have made inner peace with how things have progressed on the Forum. When I joined the Forum 'in matrimony', I undertook to abide by its rules. Through thick (
) and thin. But that does not mean that this ratifies a one sided dominance (may it be from the mites or Forum Management). Equal relationship, through the good, the bad and the ugly. And that is how I see my current 'role' on the Forum. Never supreme, but equal. Built on fairness and trust - which applies to all parties engaging on this Forum.